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Placement
Had the best 4 shifts of placement. I’ve worked 50 hours already so I’m catching up with everyone else! Woo! It’s so tiring! Leave the house at half 5 in the morn and get in at quarter to 9 in the eve.
Did another injection today, was greattt! The woman I gave the injection to said she didn’t even feel it and my mentor said I did really well which put me in a good mood! I was buzzing!
I also went down to theatres today which was so exciting, and amazing, so interesting to see how everything works in the NHS.
I’m now doing obs on my own, it sounds really easy and basic, but for me it’s a big thing to finally be allowed and trusted to do it on my own. They take blood pressure manually with a stethoscope on the ward I’m in as its more accurate, so it’s really good I’m getting practise for my OSCE (assessments we have in uni).I was losing motivation before I started placement but now I’ve Yates it’s confirmed this is def what I want to be doing!
Although certain things do happen in the day that make me want to cry and give up, 2 minutes later something will happen or a patient will say something that cheers me up instantly and rekindles my love of being a student nurse!
Earlier today there was a female patient who was depressed, she had been depressed since her husband died a year ago. She kept telling me she just wanted to die and she had had enough of life. I didn’t know what to say except that she needs to stay positive. She replied to me saying that I just don’t understand, and when I feel this bad one day to think of her and what she was saying to me. It really made me think, and realise that sometimes there just isn’t anything I can say to help. Sometimes it’s just better not to say anything.
I hate not being able to help, or being able to offer comfort as much as I try.
So it was my last placement day before Christmas today. 3 weeks holiday which I’m going to make the most of and then back to nights on placement. I’ve never worked nights before so it should be interesting, although I’m not looking forward to it, I’m more of a morning person, but we shall see!Seeing Aaron Saturday evening, can’t wait! He is in rehab still, think he’s getting very fed up, don’t blame him
:(Until next time!
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Placement
Every student nurse has placements, this is to gain experience in a care setting as a nurse and to reinforce what we are learning in the classroom.
These are vital to progress through the course.
Pretty much EVERYONE in my cohort of nearly 200 people, apart from me and 29 others, has been allocated a placement. I WANT MY PLACEMENT.
I’m stressing out here, if I don’t get a placement I won’t get experience, I’ll be behind everyone before I’ve even started! Not having a placement means I’ll have to work up my hours in other parts of the year when I have A LOT of coursework :(
Oh well. It will work out, always does.
I miss Aaron, sent him his first letter this morning, it’s cringey and I hope he does feel sick when he reads it hahaha.
Went to the gym last night. I have a plan next to my bed of which days I’m going. I’ve gone about 5 times since I’ve started this new plan and I wish the effects would hurry up and start showing, I feel like a fatty.
Have uni in Lectures in 20 mins, first one is called ‘Opportunities in Nursing’ and the second one is called ‘Emotional Labour in Nursing’.
Should be quite interesting, although all the lectures on Monday’s tell us the same thing!
Still haven’t got my bloody uniform either, just in case I get a placement. Brighton university, you’re a let down.
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Lonely
Woke up this morning without a morning text from him. I’ve had one every morning so far, so I wake up kind of expecting it. I then realised that I need to change my mind set. I can’t expect things, I’ve just got to appreciate them when they happen. The army owns him now, he’s theirs before he’s mine. I just got to accept that I have to share him, It’s like the army is his wife and I’m his mistress! haha.
He is really struggling at the moment, text me saying it’s because he misses me, I don’t think that’s why, I think he is finding this training so difficult, but it’s supposed to be! I’m sure everyone else is feeling the same. He’s also hurt his leg, and his mum told me he keeps throwing up. I think he’s just generally run down. This is what they are trying to do to them though, break them down :( I hate the fact he’s struggling.
Anyway, enough wallowing, I’ve started a weight loss/fitness routine, started it last week. I’m determined to lose weight for when he comes back for the weekend.
Off to the gym.
